Resolve

For the first time in my adult life, New Year's Eve is approaching and I am not making the traditional resolution. For years I've been promising myself I will get healthy, take better care of myself and basically lose the excess weight. For the first time, I won't be starting over in January. Instead, I'm continuing what I began in 2008.

Even when I consider that I had all year and I still have work to do, it's a pretty incredible feeling. I don't have to begin an exercise routine; I get to continue doing all the things I love, with people I love. I don't have to pour over books and magazines and Web sites to figure out what I should be eating; I get to keep doing what I'm doing with that whole "everything in moderation" thing, being mindful - not obsessive - about what I eat. In short, I get to continue being the healthy person I sorta morphed into over the course of 2008, and improve on her progress.

Pretty amazing, really.

But it leaves me without a resolution! Is it possible to resolve not to resolve? Or should I resolve to make the bed every morning (which I do almost every day, anyway) or to save money for a new car (which I desperately need but managing money has always been something that eludes me so it scares me) or to be a better sister/daughter/friend/writer/person/wookie?

I don't know the answer. I think the best news is that I don't really have to. Really, if I simply resolve to try and make the best of every gorgeous moment 2009 brings me ... isn't that enough?